In and out of doctors offices, hospitals and urgent care facilities getting poked, pricked, squeezed and scanned has been part of my journey all year long. Each visit, of desperately searching for answers, unfortunately lead to four words I’ll never forget, “We found a mass.”
After receiving upsetting news about others it’s natural for me to approach the throne boldly to pray for them, however, I seemingly go to the Father slowly for my own needs. The truth is… this flesh of mine has always struggled with needing to find out the reason why something is happening. Praying for myself isn’t usually my first response. Though there is essentially a reason for everything that occurs under the sun and in heaven, the reality is that we won’t always know it.
I often wonder if God withholds information from us because it’s the only way of keeping us from relying on our own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6). Perhaps if we know too much, will we try to direct our own path delay His. Maybe just the right portion of ignorance can push us to trust in Him just a tad bit more?
Unfortunately, my brain is naturally wired to research, analyze findings and justify results. Life has taught me that in most situations it’s better to focus on the God whose word won’t fail us (Luke 1:37) than on than on the endless search for answers. I believe what we focus on is where we’ll put our hope.
It’s true that we might not ever know why certain things happen to us but we do know that we serve a God who can work anything out for our good (Romans 8:28)—and even in the difficult times we can still find peace. Peace that’s attainable only by loosening our grip on situations beyond our control to hold on tighter to Jesus. My hope remains in Him that this journey I’ve been on will ultimately be another testimony of how faithful and powerful our God is.
For those who struggle with keeping faith in God during times of uncertainty, I beckon you to join me in hoping unswervingly in Jesus. Keep on praying. Keep on praising. Keep on studying the Word. Keep on forgiving. Keep on loving. Keep on living. God’s plan for our life is still in progress regardless of setbacks or delays (Jeremiah 29:11). God is with us. God is for us. And His love for His children never fails. Let the fight continue.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
~ Romans 15:13